A line from Billy Wilder's 1954 film "Sabrina" has been on my mind lately.* Shortly after her arrival in Paris, the very young Sabrina befriends a much older Baron St. Fontanel, with whom she attends cooking school. After an unsuccessful go in the kitchen, the Baron correctly determines by the look of her dish that Sabrina must be lovelorn. His explanation is simple: "A woman happily in love, she burns the soufflé. A woman unhappily in love, she forgets to turn on the oven." (And Sabrina's soufflé was definitely uncooked.)
You may be wondering where this post is going. I am certainly not unhappy in love, but last week someone that I love dearly -- my fabulous and feisty terrier – fell gravely ill. I am pleased to report that he is miraculously on the mend, so you can continue to read this without fear of bursting into tears. But the Baron’s quote is still rattling around in my head. From the moment I received the bad news until a day or so after the crisis was over, I simply could not go near the kitchen. Not even to make toast.
I was certainly able to eat now and then. (I am amazed, though, that the Hypocrite Police didn’t haul me off to the clink, given the amount of takeout Chinese egg drop soup I consumed last week.) I just had no desire to pick out my ingredients, set up my kitchen and get to work. And the one dish I did manage to rustle up – a goat cheese and basil omelet – was, very simply, not great work.
This reaction got me thinking about how I clearly equate meal planning and cooking with love and joy. I know some people can make mountains of food when they are upset or frustrated…somehow it takes their mind off things. But for me, there was no way I could turn my oven on until my beloved was safe and sound.
Now that he is pretty much in the clear, I find myself inching back toward my kitchen and the farmstands, where mountains of early winter squash are making their debut. I am thinking about roasting some of these lovely delicatas to start…and then I guess I will take it from there.

So, there you have it: My post for the week…supposedly about food, but really about love.
*If you have not seen the film -- and, no, the 1990's remake does not count -- the basics are this: Sabrina (Audrey Hepburn), daughter of the Larrabee family chauffeur, is head over heels "in crush" with the youngest son, David (William Holden). David is charming and handsome, but not considered good for much else. And so Sabrina is sent off to Paris to become a chef and, in theory, get over David. All sorts of predictable antics ensue, but it is rather excellent. And the charming turn by Humphrey Bogart as the older, more responsible brother, Linus Larrabee, should not be missed.




